I think it would be pretty reasonable to say that the past two years…. haven’t been great. There – wasn’t that diplomatic.
Let’s be honest. Since 2013 there have been some pretty serious set-backs and it has been easy to think that the universe is out to get me.
I’ve spent a lot that time looking back, reflecting on everything that’s happened, analysing the choices I made and where I went wrong, thinking of the things that I could have done differently and regretting the times I didn’t say or do the right thing. There have been a lot of what-ifs…
Tomorrow is the 1st of September and I’ve decided that I’m done looking back. I don’t know why I’ve picked this particular moment in time. Maybe it’s the start of the new school year. Maybe it’s the end of a particularly uncomfortable period of my life. Maybe it’s just the weather. But I feel different. I feel hopeful for the first time in forever (oo- Frozen reference!) and I’m actually, finally, looking forward to the future.
The past is most definitely in the past, and as much as I might like to, there really is nothing I can do to change the way everything turned out. Maybe things happen for a reason, maybe they don’t but they happened and that’s that.
So from this point on, I’m moving forward with a much more positive outlook. I’m knuckling down and committing to my blog so that I can see where that leads me. I’m relaxing into being a far-below-perfect mummy and enjoying each precious moment that I have with my family. I’m learning to be happy with who I am, even if that means accepting all my little flaws and foibles.
I found a quote that I really like that goes like this:
“I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 96% how I react to it.” – Scipio Africanus
I know that I still have some work to do before I get my life back on an even keel, there are still many obstacles to overcome. But I’m determined not to let life get me down, but to enjoy each and every precious moment and be truly grateful for how lucky I really am.
So September will be a month of progress. I hope to continue working to make a happy home for my children. I’m going to concentrate at work to be as successful and efficient as I can be, while remembering that I work to live – not the other way round. I’m going to put the time and effort into my blog that will hopefully help it to continue to grow over the next year.
Most of all I’m reacting positively from now on.
I also regularly update my Instagram feed with snippets of my daily life, if you’re more of a visual learner.
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