So, it’s been a while….
Now, if you read any articles on the etiquette of blog writing, most of them will instruct you never to mention the fact that you haven’t posted for a while. Whoops.
But you see, the fact that I haven’t been blogging recently is kinda relevant to this post. So I’m mentioning it.
I haven’t blogged since Easter. That seems like ages now. So much has happened, I’ve been really busy. Most of all, I’ve been conflicted. I became very confused with what my blog was, where I wanted it to go and how I wanted to move forward. I became more and more panicked and uncertain and eventually, I just…. stopped.
This blog started its little life as an outlet. A way for me to offload all of the deep, dark thoughts that I maybe didn’t want everyone to see. I decided to use it as a kind of counselling. I knew I wanted to talk to somebody about what was going on in my head, but I didn’t want to share those thoughts with the people I knew.
I very deliberately selected the people who I trusted with the knowledge they would read in these posts and hid it from the rest of my friends and family. I never promoted anything on my personal social media and didn’t even mention the fact that I’d written anything at all.
Then one day, I decided I wanted to go to the next level. I chose to create some blog-specific social media accounts and begin to promote and network in an attempt to turn my blog into something…more.
And that’s where the problems started. Suddenly, people I knew were liking instagram posts I didn’t know they could see. And following my blog-only Twitter account. Even my Grandma liked a Facebook post, when I hadn’t even told her where to find the page. And that scared me a bit. Suddenly all these secret, personal things that I had felt and written about were out there in the open, where anyone can see them.
It’s funny, but when you have a little corner of the internet that only people you don’t know read, you kind of forget that the people you do know can read it to. That might be friends, family, colleagues…. Would they understand what you’d written? Would it make them sad? Would it offend them?
I thought for a while that my blogging days may be over. If I couldn’t keep it private, then I couldn’t do it at all. So I stopped posting. No Twitter, Instagram…. I just faded into the background.
I missed it.
So I decided to find a new path. It is inevitable in this modern era that people may eventually find this blog. You can’t really hide when putting things out there on the web.
I reached the conclusion that I should definitely still blog. I love it. It brings me real joy and excitement, like nothing I’ve really known before. But it will no longer be a journal-style, spill all my secrets,
Instead it will be an personal, honest, interesting (hopefully) account of the life of a single woman, with two children, who does Burlesque dancing, works full time, loves to bake, wishes she could sew and spends far too much time planning things instead of actually doing them.
But every post will be written with the knowledge that anyone could read it…my mum, my Nanna, my boss….so if I’m prepared to write it, I’d better be prepared for anybody to read it.
I hope you all like the new style – there’s a good chance you won’t even notice the difference. And I hope to interact more with the community – to get to know people better and learn from them.
It’s good to be back…